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[13 Sep 2004|09:01pm]

i HATE school

my boyfriend is the BEST

ASHLEY WASSER is amazing

i love AMANDA WILSON and CARLY CHIARELLA

KIRA and i are lesbians

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6 know you're beautiful

woah,,,this is weird [26 Feb 2004|11:17pm]

[ mood | happy ]

[ music | jon singing sailor moon ]

new feeeeeeeelings! me likey!!!
eek! disneyland tomorrow!!! ahhhhh
i need saturday to be here now!
i'm happy, its different, its new.
.love.
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3 know you're beautiful

okay okay okay [09 Feb 2004|09:12pm]

[ mood | fuccked ]

[ music | stop drinkin brandy -the streets!!! haha ashie ]

I am..
-screwed over with my parents..
-sick of my old friends bullshit
-annoyed with all of the fake ppl out there
-sick,,very sick.

I miss..
-being worry free
-my old relationships w/ people..mainly lauren, leanne, kelly, taylor, shy and billy
-not being sick all of the time

I love..
-when friends make me smile
-feeling as if i belong somewhere
-knowing that its all going to work out in the end

I hate..
-people who give dirty fucking looks
-when they cant talk shit to your face
-girls who think they've "won" just cause the have what they want...for now at least...

its goin down.
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9 know you're beautiful

[04 Feb 2004|07:14pm]

[ mood | blah ]

[ music | laker game...down by 3! ]

so this week has been very dull, very stupid, and compleatly pointless.
/game today, we won. 7-1 in league
/robeks w/ johno and then dinner w/ fam and johno
/wow if she gives me one more dirty look,,i think i'll fucking kill her.
/fuckin bullshitness w/ life...its so stupid
/you're dumb, i care, u dont, why? its stupid.

-hotel party w/ Aimerz..?
hope it pulls thru..its needed

i wish that *adlkfjadlsjf* knew how fucking hard this is for me. i would do ne thing for ya'll to understand how i really feel.
*kiss

8 know you're beautiful

its hit me. [01 Feb 2004|01:16am]

[ mood | restless ]

[ music | hotel -r kelly :( ]

-things are never what u think they are.
-love is just "pain" in disguise
-true friends are the ones who hurt you the most.
-trust is sumthing u should never trust
-them being "just friends" is all bullshit,,no matter how many times they say it.
-the only one there for you is God

i think i'm really gunna leave this time.
*kiss

12 know you're beautiful

[19 Jan 2004|09:07am]

the harder i think
the more confused i become.
what the fuck?
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8 know you're beautiful

HaHaHaaaaa [17 Jan 2004|12:32pm]

[ mood | crazy ]

[ music | hotel -r kelly ]

Aside from a few minor mishaps...last nite was fucking awsome! hahaha. started out by going to my bball game in westlake, we won. we're now 4-0 in league...fuck yea.
then...
-went to the varsity game..fuckin ballers
-went on a little outing at half time with ian, dave, harrison, elbaum, garrrrrrrry, jason, moosie (morris) and of course..gene! had fun,,,haha my 1st time
-back for the rest of the game. eeek
-jermeys...left b4 the whole fite thingy..thank goodness
-ian, jeff and i went did our thing..blazzzzeeeee
-then to jack in the box..umm so heres what happend, fucking jeff is a crazy driver and we are all trippin out rite, and then he makes this freaking psycho trun and a MILKSHAKE spills allll over me and his car. haha it was so funny i nearly dies laffing. but it was also really fucked up and we were all trippin out and laffing our asses off. haha fun times.

well the rest of the weekend is gunna fucking blow cuz i'm under simi house arrest..fucckin shit. its cuz of finals tho. my parents are trippin out over it. but little do they know..my grades are bombass aside from my a 78% in geometry. ahh well i'm boning out. im home all day so i think i'm gunna post some pics... :)
*kiss

10 know you're beautiful

[14 Jan 2004|07:38pm]

[ mood | misunderstood ]

i told you that i need space, not that i didnt care. i wish you would realize that i still love you but that i also need some time alone. i'm sorry. i never wanted you to hate me, but i guess its to late.
*kiss

9 know you're beautiful

[10 Jan 2004|06:55pm]

the one thing i truely wanted to do today was look my mother and father in the face and say fuck you
whats stopping me?
*kiss

7 know you're beautiful

[08 Jan 2004|06:23pm]

[ mood | sick and confused ]

[ music | 100 hottest hotties -vh1 ]

woke up today at 3 this afternoon. couldnt even feel my throat and my head is pounding to no end.

i have no idea what on earth is going on with my life right now. i have fucked up every thing i have ever really known and i feel like a freaking witch for it. no joke tho..it feels as if i dont even deserve to life.

-feelings, i have no idea what to think of them.
-dreams, even more confusing then the feelings.

i hate what i have done to every one around me who had ever cared for me. the feelings i have destroyed and the relationships i have broken. theres nothing to replase them. if only there were a way to take it all back

help
*kiss

4 know you're beautiful

FUCK YOU [07 Jan 2004|02:01am]

FRIENDS FUCKING ONLY

22 know you're beautiful

home is where the <3 is.....not fucking really tho [31 Dec 2003|11:54am]

[ mood | indifferent ]

[ music | one day at a time -tupac/eminem ]

Came home from San Diego yesterday. fucking stupid trip, and all it did was bring me even further apart from my friends. its cute cause i havnt talked to any of them in about a week. i think my existence to thim is jus fucking over. watever though, i knew it was comming so have nothing to complain about. at least i hav billy. and a.rod. haha, the only two people in my life as of now.

i was supposed to go to magic mountain w/ ash, kira, and shy 2day but my mom decided to be a mother whore and didnt let me go. i'm fucking pist. now my new years plans are all f*ed up because i told ashie i would be w/ her but then billy got all mad cuz we woudlnt be together and now its just one big jumble of a mess. its fucking cute.

i hate myself for this whole automatic fail shit. i want to go down to the dmv and beat the fucking shit outa that fat mexican who failed me. death to that stupid mother fucker

i have all of these pictures on the wall behind my computer of all my friends. i hate having to look at them tho because its like eyes of disapointment staring back at me. i want to take them all down but that would just be too much of a painful process.

my thoughts are over for now. be safe and hav a happy new years.
*kiss

8 know you're beautiful

bday [24 Dec 2003|12:25pm]

yesterday was my bday! :)
it was a good day. family, billy, ashley..singing/yelling on my machine from kelly laur and ash. hehe. i love my friends.

i got a fucking automatic fail on my driving test. stupid mother fucker. its a lonnng story tho so if u wanan no just IM me. just really pisses me off cuz the guy was such a fucking asshole about it. watever tho, its all bullshit in my book.

well have a Merry Chirstmas every1. i'm gunna post pics of the family w/ chruch and xmas shit. much love!!
*kiss

20 know you're beautiful

[18 Dec 2003|01:44pm]

[ mood | annoyed ]

[ music | superman -eminem ]

things are weird rite now. fuccking weird.

01.friends..blah, there getting better tho :)
02.basketball can fucking die and go to hell
03.my dreams are so fucked up, i dont no
what on earth they mean and weather or no i
should believe them. eek i dont like it.
04.sweet 16 on saturday...i hope they come
05.i just want to fucking drive already!

Happy 3 Months Billy <3
*kiss

10 know you're beautiful

[15 Dec 2003|10:37pm]

only time will tell
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1 know you're beautiful

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